I pray my soul the Lords to keep…
I should have posted yesterday but that is how this beast works.
Yesterday my youngest angel woke me from a horrid state of pain and depression. I woke with a smile because I heard that wonderful angelic voice singing. She was singing a song learned and bible camp. One sung in many praise and worship sessions in the Christian Faith.
It was cute because my angel was singing into a box fan adding this wonderful little echo to her song and dance.
We talked for a bit. My angel was so embarrassed I witnessed the show.
My message back was happiness and joy was never to be ashamed of. It was the true love language that takes over and spreads all over when we heed to our spirits happiness. It can manifest in nearly any art form just so happens my angel picked up song and dance from me.
I’ve spent a lot of today thinking about the last time I was so happy I sung aloud. It’s been a long time. Unfortunately like life has a habit of doing when you fight depression I got kicked in the gut today as well.
I read a wonderful article about how sometimes all you can do is breath in the fight of mental illness. I’ve had my share of that. I want so badly though to find that curve I can round and see these days behind me.
Recovering from major surgery, dealing with constant pain, fighting my own fears and depression then fighting others because I am that guy and I find myself either in radical story lines or those I should be able to depend on are in need of a safe harbor as bad or worse than me.
That article I read really hit it on the head. It’s a constant battle and its exhausting.
The upside is that for every second I have to fight this fight I see the world in more passionate and different eyes than anyone and IF the darkness ever wins know that the light had 100 times more the burning joy and wonder than those who are not awakened to the world as i see it.
For now. I have to figure a way to regain control of this current spiral and teach my angels the strength and fortitude that exists in our hearts because of that joyous love that makes us smile, sing, and dance in the moment.
Embrace love and peace the creator is raining down on all of us for we have to choose and accept.
I pray the cosmic creator lights your path and a song finds your heart today.
aka Soulbound Heart