So as I travel on my journey, I find myself lacking.
My energy is all but gone, I am physically broke, and spiritually my tether to this world seems to fade in and out.
I’ve tried to think positive. Believe positive.
I’ve prayed and prayed.
I’ve sought peace and wisdom from all that exists around me.
Somehow I still find myself lacking.
Not in faith. Not in belief.
Just in reality and my ability to stay corporally connected to it.
I try hard not to think about how weak I feel.
Or how much chaos and fear try to flood into the front of my mind
I had someone finally do what I have done many times; stop and lay hands and pray for me.
It was good and odd at the same time.
It was what I needed but to late all at the same time.
Maybe that is the ultimate tether…
When it’s out it’s out.
Just so tired of the stormy seas and no harbor in sight
Tired of the loss of energy and no source of nourishment
I feel I’ve walked my 40/40 or I’ve suffered my penance.
That’s the odd part, I know the Architect’s structure and design for my soul.
I do not fear that.
I just want so badly to break this magnetic connection to the negative
I need to do this.
I need to replenish my energy
Purify my soul with heat of pure connectivity and fire of the holiest
So that I may continue my duties prescribed to me
That my soul may continue to light the way and provide love and wisdom to those around me
What I need has always been given
I am past want
Beyond return of desire
I need and as promised unto all I claim
Now tonight I sleep with my spirit open to receive
aka Soulbound Heart