I am the type of person that when something is laid on my heart, I have to act. This morning something happened that I found so wrong, I felt compelled to act repercussions be damned. I work in a highly political environment. Not doing the “Mother May I’s” and other rituals that must be adhered too in such environments can and often do lead to career death.
Today co-workers who worked 100’s of man hours on a project watched as others from other departments were recognized and given one time bonuses for their work on a particular project. Those who made that work even possible were completely over looked. Now I can’t say if this was a typo, accident, purpose, political, or whatever the reason. The fact is they deserved to be up there as well and were not even mentioned. I saw the disappointment, frustration, and heart break in their faces and eyes as it happened. Some who’s stories are so trying that Job would be proud for their persistence, began to waiver at one more straw breaking.
A weight came down on my soul and I could not, just absolutely could not allow this to stand. So after the function I pulled one of the main persons aside that had power to make those reality. I played the stupid blonde and had them explain to me like a four-year-old the process as to how one would be recommended for such honors in front of everyone. Then at the proper time came the verbal left hook. I pointed out that I would have expected that XYZ persons would have been up there, after all without them the other efforts wouldn’t have even been able to begin let alone complete.
Now understand in most environments like mine I just pulled the trigger on the death of my career.
Funny thing, is when you move with the spirit, the spirit moves with you. That weight on my soul left and settled on the person I was speaking. I could see the blood flow from their face, neck and arms. I could see the realization physically hit them they for whatever reason had partaken in exactly what I had perceived. The beautiful thing though was the true leadership I witnessed afterwards. No excuses. No exceptions. Total ownership warranted or not and a commitment to make amends. This restored some of my faith. At least I know something would come of it, even if it were not ideal.
Those who were left out did receive a personal apology so far. I know it’s not the total package, who knows maybe that might come too. At least their hard work is recognized and better yet, it’s recognized that others out there exist to ensure their value is fairly represented and not undersold or overlooked.
A good deed done, may this seed grow.
aka Soulbound Heart