The daily fight with depression and anxiety can be draining at best, and damning at worst. I hit a real low about week or so ago due to some combinations of events. I just shut down. If I weren’t stubborn and if I didn’t truly believe in my family’s motto from the old world… (Non Revertar Inultus) I probably wouldn’t be here. I just have a real stubborn streak that demands that I do not allow those who can’t stand me or do not like me to have a life with out me. They don’t deserve peace if I can’t have it.
Meh it keeps me going…
The daily fight is real.
One thing I have managed to do is setup an Amazon store so that family and friends can order through our store and small percents of the order come to my family to help us during this time of unemployment.
I’ve re-re-resolved to get back onto my three different novels that haunt my mind. I posted a chapter of one here a few weeks back. My plan is to alternate weeks and post chapters from each one until I finish them. Then publish them through Amazon’s publishing so they can be ebooks.
I hustle every day trying to sale none vital and none heirloom items to eek by house payment, phone payment, car payment, and food. Everything else.. meh they can’t get blood from a stone. At least not until I have more coming in.
The real bonus to all of this has been that I get to spend 1000% more time my angles. They lift me up so much when they see me down. They help out when they know I am hurting. A true blessing.
I write all of this so that those who quietly suffer, you know you are not alone. There are many of us. I feel you and emphasis with you. I pray peace fills your heart and a spirit of guidance rains upon you for you to find a path to love and happiness.
-Static MagickStatic Magick
aka Soulbound Heart